That other pending update

At some point in the near future, I need to update my wordpress program from its current edition.

I am unable to embed video and other widget-y things. I can’t turn off the “justification” (that’s inserting spaces between the words so that each line of the screen/page is completely used from left to right) of text or the automatic changing of my use of multiple periods “. . . .” into … .

I’m frustrated because I should be able to do it easily. Back in the day I was the guy people went to for answers about stuff like this. I still am, but to a much smaller and less knowledgeable group of people (no offense).

I know what I’m supposed to do (wordpress outlines it nicely), but MySQL is changing from 4 to 5, I’m a little fuzzy on exactly which things I need to backup and where they are on my server, and I’m generally tired and distracted. I can figure it out if I put some time into it, but I keep putting it on the backburner, and with each delay I get a little more frustrated.

It’s not that urgent, I know… but I’ve got a couple of posts saved as drafts because I can’t get the multimedia embedded the way I want to, and that Wilton post still doesn’t look like I want it to. And it’s starting to eat at me. I don’t like not being good at things, and I have such a fear of my “skills” and “expertise” fading as time passes.

I know what I once was and used to be able to do. And I get so nervous when I encounter an obstacle, that I won’t be able to overcome it. It’s silly, really, I guess since I pretty much always do. But I have to ask myself, would this have even been an obstacle back in the day?  Maybe I’m misremembering how much help I needed back then, but I find myself forced to rely on myself more than ever these days. And, my family counting on me too. (not to update webpages or blogs, but you know… a failure to be able to do one, makes you wonder if you’ll be able to deliver in other areas).

Hmmm, this got kind of “heavy” quickly, huh? Anyway, I’m going to get WordPress updated… soon… and do that stupid Alpha Bits experiment I really want to do too!

(Maybe not until Sunday though – Jay’s Hockey game at 10, Cardinals game at 4:30, and Charger game at 8 on Saturday…)

It’s 12:51 AM… I should be asleep.

Contributed by: Scott Copperman (Guest Author)


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